Sabotage Myself

Doing well
but

hell
bent

on my own

destruction

I

find myself

alive

but

then proceed
to

make
death a certainty

Why

I sabotage

my

self

I'll never
know

Afraid of failure

but

terrified
of success

Stuck

in the middle

Drowning
myself

in mediocrity

Abhorring

my

talent
and loathing

my waste


What I

could

be
I'd

never know

What I

would

be
I'll

never show

Why do I

hate

the very object
of

my desire

Why
do

I
lay siege

to my

dreams

My

heart
subverted

by
my mind

Blackmail

I attack

my own

character

and
undermine

my

potential

The

essence

of my

passion
I destroy

Tell me why
that

I
Sabotage Myself